Changing the world….
Isn’t this something that we all, deep down, want to do? Isn’t there a point in all of our lives where we stop and ponder over the injustice and unfairness of it all? Whether it be for only a one, shining moment or a lifetime quest that drives everything that we do and say?
For our community, it’s the injustice of being stigmatised against for an illness we did not ask for. It’s the injustice of being told to ‘cheer up’ or to ‘get on with it’, when such advice is typically as useful as telling an elderly man with a crippled leg to hop about and perform a somersault. It’s the burning sense of frustration that stews and boils in your abdomen as those who have little to no understanding of our plight attempt to silence our concerns with unhelpful responses or downright irritating anecdotes of how they got through their own periods of darkness.
To give you an idea of where I’m coming from, there’s always been a part of me that has wanted to start a blog. In fact, when I did ‘officially’ start it, a couple of years ago. I imagined myself writing every day, publishing at least one entry ( a tad optimistic seeing as my posts are pretty lengthy as it is!) a week, with a mass of followers cheering me on each step of the way.
It is only with the benefit of hindsight that I realise how idealistic and, lets face it, nonsensical those expectations were. In many ways I was doomed to fail because not only were my ambitions so out of touch with reality, but I expected the world to revolve around me for no explicable reason other than it should.
Thus it so happened that after a brief period of euphoria I slowly found myself slipping into a pit of despair as I struggled to even write one sentence without over scrutinising it and beating myself up over how imperfect it was. At some points I even managed to convince myself that I was somehow letting myself down as a human being.
Whilst I am usually the last person to advocate an excess in introspective thinking, perhaps a healthy dose of such a thing would be beneficial not only for ourselves, but for those around us too. After all, are we not all imperfect with our own collection of flaws and an infinite potential to have lapses in judgement and dubious opinions of self worth?
Just a passing thought…
What do you think? Are we too hasty in our efforts towards changing what we dislike about the world around us as opposed to challenging ourselves to alternative ideas and philosophies? If so, how exactly do you establish the balance between attempting to change the world around you, and your own internal thoughts?
I look forward to hearing your point of view on this!
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